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"I’d Wait Forever if you said you would come for me"
"Why would you even wait for forever?"
"Because I love you, and no matter what they say. I won't listen, I don’t care.
All I know is that I m in love with you"
"This is fucking nonsense.”
“Oh yeah, this is ridiculous, I m here standing in front of a boy confessing my love to him, without even hoping that he will love me as much as I want him to”.
“What do you want me to do eh? Listen, I care about your feelings. Yes, because you’re my friend, a very good friend. And you know that I’m happy when I m with you, but I treat you as my friend and I guess that would be forever.”
“Its okay, I understand, thank you for being honest, don’t worry I m not sad about it, I just doubt, I mean how could two people talk on the phone every night, hangout every weekend, and only one of them fell for the other? Aha. Guess I gotta go.”
“Lets forget about what happened.”
“Yah sure, I guess. Someday you'll know that I was the one for you.”
~~~

“Here am I, back at my bed, staring at the picture frame, at the memories. I smile and not knowing my tears started to fall like the water in the shower...”

“Mary, Josh is here come down for a sec, Dad and I will go to grocery, I believe Josh has a present for you.”

“I m going Mom.”

“Hey josh, why are you here?”
“Something go off right Mary?”
“What? Eh, what are you talking about?”
“I know Mary, I know”
“Let’s go to my room”

“I did it. I-I said it. I said to Jake”
“Yes I know, I saw you two”
“You did? What the. I m so humiliated
“So what does it feel?”
“I would rather do something and find out that it was the wrong thing, than never know if it was the right thing."
“So the result is?”
“Since you said it, my heart suffered so much that it’s totally broken now”
“You should move forward.”

“You don’t understand.”
“You cannot make someone love you, you can only craft yourself someone who can be loved”
“He was my first love, he is everything to me.”
“You can get a better one, Gawd. He is not worthy.”
“What should I do?”
“Just accept it then move on!. It takes a little time; all we have to choose is what to do with the time that is given to us”
“I love having a gay friend, thanks Joshie.”
“You’re always welcome”
“Eh, hey, Mom said you have a gift for me? What is it? Come on Tell me!”
“Haha. I bought you some Teddy bear. I think it can help you someway; you can hug him and imagine it’s your baby. Haha”